Grace...

Something I say often is that love lives in the grace we have for one another, and ourselves. When you and I were talking about grace the other day, I told you that you would always have grace from me, to a point. That hurt you, I think, and we dug into it, into the idea that, due to my own trauma, I’ve become an incredibly patient person, but that I’ve also learned that I have to have boundaries within myself to make sure that I don’t go back into a place where I allow the kind of treatment I’ve experienced in the past. You said that it scared you, the idea of losing me to some mistake or another, and I reassured you that you won’t lose me, because the things that cross that line, I’ve been very open about, and are very extreme and not at all who you are, which is why I feel so safe and secure in us.

The thing is, I believe that by being in relationships like ours, where grace and communication and love are always at the forefront, not only do we learn how amazing it can be to exist in that kind of space, but also how to start to heal and find grace for ourselves, as well. When someone with as kind a heart and beautiful a soul as you sees me the way you do, I can’t help but be gentler with myself, and it seems as though you’re experiencing the same thing, based on our conversation that day. By seeing and loving one another as we do, we are becoming more careful with ourselves, as well, even when faced with parts we don’t like. That’s the core of deep down growth, and I love growing with you. I love you, my sweet girl, with all my heart and soul.