Presence...

Since you moved into the new place, we have very nearly fallen asleep on the phone every night. We’ve spent a great deal of the days together, too, when and where things allow it. I’m still astounded by how much you seem to want me around, and how that matches the way I feel for you. It isn’t, to be clear, that we need to be together all the time, or that we get anxious or uncomfortable if we aren’t for a stretch of time. Rather, it’s just a simple realization, as we talked about last night, that the presence of the other makes whatever we’re doing better. That want is a powerful thing.

You’ve often said to me that, when it comes to a need for alone time, that I don’t count, because you feel so safe with me that I don’t drain energy from you with my presence. Quite the opposite. And I feel the same way about you, of course. I think that’s part of why we want the other around so much. Instead of causing stress with presence, we alleviate it, which just makes life run more smoothly. You make my life run more smoothly, even in the waves of chaos that are the unavoidable side effect of all the positive changes we’re making, they’re easier to ride with you in my world. I love you, my sweet girl, with all my heart and soul.